I hate my mother. People don’t understand that when I say it, it’s real feelings. Everyone thinks I should forgive her and have a great relationship with her. No. I never fucking will. I was sitting in class today trying so God damn hard to hold back tears over this fucking stupid movie called 28…
i know initial reaction to something that happened to you is why me. And it sucks to have things trigger those thoughts and memories to come back when you try so hard to forget them.. but you have to remember there are two ways to deal with things; dwelling on them and hating your life bc of it… or accepting it, learning from it, and moving on. It is always going to be with you, but it can be with you in a negative or positive way. You need to realize that yeah those things happened to you but youre not going to let it define you as a person and youre going to learn from it and youre going to move on and become your own person. I’m not saying get over it and move on, but at the same time I am. If you keep the same mentality that you have you will forever be where you are mentally right now. But if you learn from it and learn how to deal with it you’ll become stronger. Stop dwelling on the bad things and focus on the postitive things that it teaches you; I.E. keeping you from doing bad things, eventually making you a stronger person who will be able to deal with other hard things, being able to relate to others, etc. Every cloud has a silver lining, its your job to find that silver lining and embrace it.
